holy cow.

4am can really sneak up on a girl.

i've been redesigning my layout for a bit,

but wow, i've been sitting at my laptop for six hours.

brilliant, beth.

brilliant.

i'm going to bed.

Treasures for less.

So, I've a new addiction.

It's called Heartsy and it's brilliant.

For those of you who appreciate

the beauty that is Etsy.com,

allow me to introduce to you a better way

to browse and find lovely things on Etsy.

Heartsy features different Etsy artists,

and allows you to purchase "vouchers"

that can be used at that particular merchant's Etsy shop.

The kicker, as they say, is that each voucher is worth

a fraction of what you pay for it,

so you're basically buying gift certificates

to Etsy shops for less.

Why would any sane artist do this, you ask?

Well, it's simple: promotion.

You like what they have,

you come back for more.

Only this way,

you don't have to spend a fortune to do so.

The best part is that if you purchase

a VIP membership for $7 and some change,

you get an even bigger voucher

for the same amount of money.

I've been on Heartsy for three days now,

and I've already purchased two vouchers.

It's crazy easy and so much fun.

I dare you to try it.

long time no see, eh?

Hi there.

So, I've been on hiatus.

That's what I'm calling it, at least,

but it involved a break up,

three moves, a job change,

a career choice, a meeting,

and a marriage to a wonderful man.

Needless to say, life is good.

And at the urging of my lovely sister,

I'm back to share with you all again.

Look for more sparkles,

less mopeyness,

(yes, that's a word. I checked.)

and way more fun ;)

You. No. Longer. Matter.

I want things to stop changing.

Progress.

Digress.

Even when it's so much better,

there's still a part of me that feels so detached until the new,

becomes familiar,

and I am no longer faced with anything from before.

And every time thoughts of what was,

or the words of people come and gone,

those who were once so very much a part of my life,

are staring me in the face,

especially when it takes me by surprise,

I just wish I could erase memories.

Those that hurt.

Those that remind me of what was,

all the good, and all the pain.

They are no longer a part of my world.

I only want what I have.

The beautiful man in my life,

the world we've created together,

even in such a short time,

and I wish for all the rest to fade away,

disappear,

and leave me in peace.

Please,

just leave me in peace.

And so we've come full circle.

The sky fell today.

And I sat, and I fell apart,

and somehow it seems like we've been here before.

Dear lifeunreliable,

Where did I go wrong?

But the better question is . . .

where do we go from here?